All the things you see~

♪ The fire trucks are coming up around the bend~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 23:49:42 GMT

11.46pm, I've written about... Seventy nano words today and am thinking about having a bath. It's way late~

I also ate SO MUCH for dinner, I feel really God-damn sick now @_@ Mmmm, apple sausages, how I love you~ <3 Also, rice pudding. With nutmeg. Hell yes.

Which book do I wanna read next; The Bachman Books, From a Buick eight or Just after Sunset? I'm running out of books, now ;_; I have... Twelve left to go after these; One of which isn't out until later this month, four of which I'm in no rush to get to since I saw the movies and two of which Nick has on audio so I haven't been able to justify buying yet ^^;

BOOKS, BOOKS! YUMMY BOOKS!

...

I'll go now.

♪ I don't know how I feel - you almost make me doubt I feel at all

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 16:27:51 GMT

Long ago we established that my choice of lyrics mean nothing, I don't own many 'happy' songs XD I love this icon, it's my current fave <3

OKAY SO while Nick's out I'm supposed to be getting on with my words, but so far all I've done is change my wallpaper (for the third time in twelve hours, I can't decide!) and now I'm sitting here updating 'cos my head HURTS since I slept about four hours, got up for four, went back to bed again and haven't been able to make it GO since I got up again - lame. I also REALLY wanna go back on Skype and talk to Tweekle again but I can't because I REALLY have to get my words done so I can spend the evening doing the laundry I didn't do yesterday.

Fail.

THE POINT OF THIS IS I'm posting my nano to my writing journal so I'm gonna stick up a link in case people want to follow it ^^ It'll be updated randomly since I never write in any sort of order, but the first bit is up already and you can find it Here~ HOPEFULLY it won't matter if you don't know the fandom since it's such a massive, AU project so yeah! Enjoy ^^

...

Nick's still not back, guess that means I HAVE to write now, huh?

Damn.

♪ I walk a fine line between the right and the real~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:53:45 GMT

MY GOD IT IS FREEZING! Stupid, God-damned cold! ;_;

I have a to-do list today!

NANO WORDS

Last night, I couldn't sleep so I went through what little plot I have for my nano trying to pad it out some and get as many RE references as I can into it. I now have a pretty good idea of how I can draw the zombie stuff out a little longer than normal and of the things I'll need to explain to get to that point. I have my 'bad guys' and my group names and EVERYTHING. Now all I need if some fucked-up shit to make it REALLY RE! Like Lisa Trevor. Only not THAT fucked up. Man, I am SO enjoying being an RE nerd XD Nano is so FUN this year! <3

Laundry

BAH -_- I haven't done any ironing in weeks and have no t-shirts left. That sucks since I live in t-shirts... I am, however, looking forward to watching a movie while I get this little chore of my way~ I dunno what I'll watch though... Phantom of the Opera, probably. I ALWAYS end up watching that hen Nick's not here since he hates all musicals and the Phantom is one of my all-time great loves like Alex the Kidd or Jack the Ripper.

What? You want sanity? go someplace else!

Cleaning

URG! ;_; I dislike cleaning when in the house alone, I can only clean effectively to VERY loud music and when I'm home alone, I don;t have very loud music in case people come to the door and I have to pretend not to be in *is hit* I at least need to clean up all the snot rags on my side of the bed or I'll end up infecting myself again XD;

Video games

FUCK YES! I miss video games. I REALLY wanna finish at least Pokemon XD and P3 before the mad rush to get all my Christmas stuff starts but with nano, I dunno if I'll manage... I'm HOPING to raid Kim's 360 collection after Christmas, so I really wanna have some games done by then, at the very least! Mind you, I might as well ask for a second TV since Nick's already got two 360 games - I'm never gonna get a look in ;_;

Okay! Now that's all written up, I'm gonna sit here and talk to Kat, accomplishing none of it. Go me XD;

Writer's Block: Change is good

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:10:03 GMT

If you could change one major thing about your life, whether a relationship, your job, your living situation, your school, etc., what would it be? Are you currently working toward a serious life transition?

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I am indeed~ After being out of work for over ten years due to certain health issues, I am working towards getting back out there once again. It is absolutely terrifying, so I don't know if the whole 'change is good' thing actually applies, but who knows? When I'm 'well' again, I may not see things the same way as I do now.

In fact, I am kinda putting all my eggs in one basket and HOPING for exactly that...

In other news; I was actually feeling better when I work up this afternoon until my mum called and a tidying spree followed - now I feel worse than I did a week ago. Lame.

♪ And when we were good, you just close your eyes - So when we are bad, we'll scar your minds~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 22:47:22 GMT

HEY GUYS! Been a while, huh? <3

Lit.

With Marmie, for effect XD

That's all, really~ I've been sick so haven't been doing much of anything ^^; fail.

♪ You were fake, I was great - nothing personal~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 10:53:13 GMT

Firstly, all these damn 'get this song on your cell phone' pop-ups are really getting on my nerves -_- As is the fact that my mouse won't let me scroll down, only up - what's that all about?!

ANYWAY.

The writing bug is biting so hard right now it HURTS. Is it a good idea to start something new so close to the start of nano? I am 100% certain that no, no it isn't but I'm considering it anyway (and should be writing this in my other LJ probably but meh, live with it *is hit*) I also 100% blame Stephen King's 'The Dark Half' for this; It has been making me wanna write the whole time I've been reading it and when I finished it? Damn. That's all I can say. when you can be SO SURE about how you feel about a character all through the book and then, in that last paragraph, wonder if you ever had it right at all? THAT is pretty damn amazing writing, if you ask me. I WANNA READ IT FOR THE FIRST TIME AGAIN ;-; Bag of Bones is next, I hope it's just as good! I'm running out of King books now, it's kinda scary...

There was more but I'm running SUPER LATE here, so I gotta run - hope you're all good? It's been a while~ <3

♪ I'm trying to identify the voices in my head - God, which one's you?

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 23:34:42 GMT

Lyrics courtesy of devotfeige <3 I love you, man!

Breaking hiatus to announce that I will be twenty-nine this month and that this upsets me greatly ;_;

That is all.

♪ the song of love from an angelic boy, stuck in my head, and this is what he said~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 18:56:56 GMT

HIATUS

I'm taking a break from almost all online stuffies for a while and since most of my friends are here? I wanted to do a post so no-one worried <3 You've probably noticed my entries have been more and more depressing lately and I've been sick for a hell of a long time so I think i need to take a time out and try and get things back on track again ^^ I want to write with this time, but I also want to get into a more healthy routine and give as much time as I can to my Condition Management course so please understand and feel free to email if you need me for anything - I'll get it <3

Also, I dunno if you guys get on LJ much anymore, but your words have helped me so much and made me feel a little less lost with everything that's coming up so I wanted to say a little thank you to you all <3

9_miles_high - How many years has it been? I honestly couldn't tell you because I stopped counting as soon as I realized however long it is doesn't seem like enough *hug* I feel like I've known you forever and I'm so grateful to have a friend like you by my side in everything I do. I can't wait to see you again, I've been missing you ever since I got home ;_; Thank you so much for everything Sweetie - I love you so much <3 Always? All ways X***

devotfeige - My Tweekle-toes <3 You're doomed to be that forever, I hope you know that? Maybe I can add 'one part of a Jill sandwich with Claire' too, but that's kinda long XDD I love our little in jokes, I've had so few people in my life to share things like this with before, it's an amazing feeling you've shared with me *hug* I want you to come back to see me again soon, deal? We need to eat bagels on the kitchen floor at 2am again and go to Ireland and find you that Irish lass XD I love you, Tweekle, so much, thank you for letting me, I know it wasn't easy for you <3

fireflower12 - I've known you the least amount of time and yet spent more time with you than the others - fun, no? XD Man, you always help everything to be so much fun! You always find a way to make me smile when I think it's impossible and you make me feel way better than I know I am... *nuzzles* I love you so much, I hope you know you've done as much for me as you say I've done for you! Thank you X***

cypher_away - YOU! *glmop* You I can't thank enough because I'm a horrible friend to you since I talk to you even less than I do the rest of them and STILL you send me things and STILL you always comment here and make me feel loved ;_; *hug* I love you Sweetie, I hope you know that, and I'll be mailing your birthday pressie out soon! The hand-made part is almost done, just need the pampering bits now XD Take care of yourself, okay?! <3

So yeah. I probably will pop back here now and again and scribblement will still be updated daily but for now, catch you laters~ *group hug* <3

♪ I can't hardly breathe, when I'm going down don't worry about me

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 19:22:30 GMT

Weekends are kinda crazy, lately. I guess that's a good thing? I mean, weekends are for catching up with friends and being lazy with the other halves but it always makes me feel bad when I sit down at the computer as the evening comes into full swing to see what everyone else has been doing because it means I wasn't there.

Today, we ended up having a BBQ which was fun! Mike canceled last minute so we recruited Emma-mate, Markie and Isabel into the deal instead which was much more fun but also much more tiring... There are NO WORDS to explain how much I'm looking forward to relaxing in a bath later - my legs are KILLING ME! Ever since they caused so much trouble when i was sick, the slightest things happens and they're off again~

Fun though ^^

While I'm here, I wanna say sorry to a few people who I've talked to on Skype and MSN this last week - if I seemed snappy at all, I really am sorry; Normally when I'm sick I avoid the net because I DO get very frustrated, snappy and easily upset when I'm starting to feel better and I hate to inflict these things on my friends, but this time... It went on for so long, I thought it might cheer me up. So sorry, really - first for not being about much at all and then being a snappy cow when I was for all of ten minutes - please forgive me?

I'm gonna go get a nice, long, hot bath now because my stupid legs HATE me ;_; Hope everyone's having a fun weekend! <3

♪ I thought this place was an empire, but now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure...

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 22:32:08 GMT

Fellin' so much better today! Actually got out for a bit which made me happy ^^ It's been a beautiful day down here so Nick and I went down the Quay and sat watching the sea <3 Then I went to see the parents 'cos I missed Dad's birthday being sick and Mum's having hers while she's away - they leave tomorrow - so good day ^^

RANDOM TIME!

POKEMON!

Yeah, I'm a little addicted lately, or I was until I started feeling better and now I'm just... Meh. It's a lot of the same thing over and over so after twenty-five hours in three days I'm giving it a rest again. I REALLY need to clear some of my backloggery, guys!

BUT YES! My Pokemon team because they are AMAZING!
Umbreon - my baby <3
Swalot - this dude? YOU CAN'T HURT HIM. EVER.
Jumpluff - I was SO HAPPY when I caught that wild Hoppip, SERIOUSLY.
Ninetails - SO FUCKING PRETTY. That is all.
Sealeo - This thing is just COOL. And blue.
Baltoy - XD <3
And I have a Zubat in day care. Yes. my pokemon team are all very awesome and stuff! And NO! I do not NEED an electric type - my Swalot has electric moves because he is JUST that cool. JEALOUS?!

There was something else as well, something about when you try to be nice and friendly to someone and they throw it back at you dripping with sarcasm and just how RUDE that is. I mean, not like a person HAS to take their time to make YOU feel good about what you do! You ain't no better than the rest of us, asshole.

Yeah, that pissed me off...

Gonna sit some more now. Yeah.

Writer's Block: Peek-a-boo, what to do?

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:05:00 GMT

If your friend or partner left his or her email open, would you look? How about a journal? Have you ever peeked at something private?

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Well, out of respect for my other half? I'd say no, not in a 'I wanna SPY on you' kinda way, at least. Nick and I share the computer since his kinda died and we use all the same passwords and mostly he uses my email account too so it's not a big thing with us - we're both too lazy to keep secrets anyways ^^;

Journals and letters though? Meh, with Nick it's the same deal; We read each others' mail because it normally involves both of us anyways and half the time we don't even notice who's name is on the front. Nick doesn't have a journal XD I wouldn't read it if he did, though and I like to think I wouldn't need to <3

♪ If I fall along the way - Pick me up and dust me off~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 14:17:53 GMT

Okay so, been a while, have an update~

Friday night I came back from a friend's engagement party feeling TERRIBLE. REALLY heavy head-cold, temperature, limbs aching and muscles HURTING terrible. Didn't sleep much.

Saturday much of the same with a fair amount of tears thrown in and believe me, with all the problems I've had with my legs over the years? it takes one HELL of a lot of pain to get me to cry because of it...

Sunday, still the same, decided it was probably worse than a cold and called the NHS who properly screamed SWINE FLU and sent me drugs. The drugs made me sick, they sucked, I took them anyway because, you know, I was being sick anyway~

Monday, felt better! Found out leg pain would leave me along for an hour of so if I too Nurofen and used heat packs so managed to sleep more than four hours for the first time in what seemed like FOREVER. Was so happy!

Tuesday (today) the limbs aren't hurting so much now but the heavy head-cold feeling is back which is better in a lot of ways and means I'm getting there, but makes me more miserable because it's hard to do anything. Lame.

There you go.

Other stuff that's happened;

I got a USB fan XD It's SO COOL (hahahaha!) but it worries me 'cos it gets hot real fast...

I've been playing Pokemon XD for the last two days because that's all I can concentrate enough on to do aside from the sims and my computer makes my head hurt @_@

I'm sure other stuff has happened, but I don't remember what.

EDIT; JUST REMEMBERED! I got a very interesting bio-hazard package in the mail today (yes Tweekle, that DID make me think of RE XD) because apparently with swine Flu you can't go to the doctors to be CORRECTLY diagnosed? They send you a kit to test yourself! It amused me no end, so I donated my snot for them and sent it right back~

XDD

Writer's Block: Home Remedies

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 08:17:39 GMT

When you get sick or have a cold, what's your favorite remedy to make you feel better?

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*just had to spam with yet ANOTHER one of these since I'm suffering RIGHT NOW* Home-made hot honey and lemon drinks, Obus oil burning with nice long baths and food programs on the tv while covered up in a cozy duvet! I dunno how that last one helps, but I ALWAYS end up watching those shows when I'm sick ^^; Sleep is good, too! When it works... *not slept yet* ;_;

Writer's Block: Top of the Charts

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 14:25:45 GMT

What's the most-played song in your music library?

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I only got this computer six months ago so my played count isn't high on ANYTHING, but I love music related stuffies, so XD

Holiday by Boys like Girls = 42 times compared to 38 by the next most played. I'm not over surprised, i simply ADORE those guys but Holiday isn't my favourite song of theirs by a long shot so that bit surprises me.

Writer's Block: Worrisome

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 23:17:38 GMT

What is your biggest worry right now?

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Ending up right back where I started from all those years ago.

♪ I run around like a chicken with its head cut off - Like an idiot~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 22:04:11 GMT

Just my opinion, but;

I wouldn't say you were a chicken if you refused to fight a bull, catch a deer, dance with a snake of feed a shark.

I'd probably say you were better off out of the gene pool if you wanted to do these thing...

God! I hate reality TV...

NEW JOURNAL. AGAIN >_>

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 07:44:23 GMT

scribblement! scribblement! scribblement!

I decided to go for it, so here, this is the name of my new writer's diary THING. Feel free to friend, I hope you will, I could use the support <3

And no, 8.43am and I haven't gone to bed yet >_>

♪ Mr Writer, why don't you tell it like it is?

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 23:56:57 GMT

I would quite like your opinions on something I'd like to do in the future, if that's cool? I mean, I have like a ZILLION journals but mostly I keep to this one - for more personal thoughts, feelings and rants - and dA - for writing related bits and pieces - but lately, since I'm trying REALLY HARD to get into the mindset of REALLY writing again, I'm wondering if a diary of writing might be a good idea...

I have a writing LJ already, I could use that - I don't use it much to post to anymore, I tend to use dA or FF./Net instead - or I could do as I've been doing until now and use this but I'm sure they are people here who don't care much about my views on writing so maybe a new journal...? I have an IJ which I could use, but IJ isn't as big as LJ so I dunno if that would work either, so I'm leaning towards yet ANOTHER LJ, this one purely for my original writing babbles, notes and probably whinings about how much I HATE writing anyway...

Would that be crazy, do you think...?

♪ I'm not saying right is wrong, it's up to us to make the best of the things that come our way~

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 18:42:14 GMT

Lately, I've been feeling very much like I'm just drifting around, not doing much of anything and yet still having no time left at the end of it. I've never really had that problem before, despite any lack of structure to my life - I've always had hobbies and chores to keep me busy and happy. So I started asking myself what I wanted to do with my life and there really is just one answer to that; WRITE

Writing is the only thing I have ever really cared much about at all and the only thing that has remained a constant interest to me, as well. Still, that doesn't mean it's easy to do. I never was the kind of person who could MAKE myself do something - I'm stubborn, even to myself - and writing is harder than most things to force. So I just left it there, figuring when the time was right, I'd start it all up again...

Bad thinking, man. It doesn't work like that either, sadly. The writers brain gets lazy, it forgets how to string words together so that they paint pictures and also the person forgets what a wonderful thing creating a world and all that dwell in it can be~ You can't be lazy about writing, despite popular belief - it is like any other talent that needs practice less it go rusty and crumble away.

I've been reading Stephen King's 'On Writing' - a present from Krista when she came to visit ♥ - and it has renewed my love for writing a million times over. It is so interesting to read about one of my favourite authors and how he came to be where he is both through nurture and hard work. It is also incredibly encouraging to read that a lot of what he sees as 'good practices' and 'good thought processes' are tools I used to have - it's making me want to write again while reminding me that there is work involved and you need to be prepared for that.

I'm sharpening those tools for the first time in years now - I just hope some of them aren't completely eaten through with rust or too blunted by time to work well again.

I have too many projects going at once, this is my problem. I am void of anything resembling self esteem so the fanfics I write and the comments they receive fuel me to write my own stuff. Only, I don't have the time for both anymore. I have a few choices here, none that are going to be easy for one reason or another, but I'm opting for perhaps the hardest for someone like me who absolutely abhors deadlines and time-frames -_- I WILL organize my time better and I WILL push forward with everything at once. Because I owe the people who have kept me writing this long that much, at least ♥

And with that, I move to every writers worse job - editing. Urg, I hate you so much ;_;

♪ You can walk all over me tomorrow, but tonight - can't we just pretend to sleep?

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 08:10:21 GMT

THINGS I MISS

Having a current games console - FFXIII is out soon. Also RE; Darkside Chronicals. NEED.
VIDEO GAMES - THEY SOOTH MY PAIN ;_;
Hanging out with Kitsu - I miss you, please don't let things get you too down, I'm still here <3
Coffee and chocolate for breakfast with Tweekles - one of the best days I've ever had <3!
The Sushi Bar with Krista - Noodle salad never tasted better than when you were here <3
WRITING - I HATE YOU SO MUCH. Bitch.
Night and Grey- I dreamed about them last night, they somehow had lots of babies XD
HAVING MONEY - I remember you well, my friend...

THINGS I DON'T MISS

Being constantly freaked out and worrying about everything.
Ice skating.
ORANGE SQUASH.

THINGS I DON'T CARE ABOUT EVEN A LITTLE BIT

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The weather?

Writer's Block: Kindness of Strangers

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 12:30:02 GMT

Would you donate a kidney or bone marrow to a stranger?

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It is REALLY funny that should come up, because I was thinking about it just the other day~ Indeed I would, no questions. I'm registered for them to take what they like after I die, but I was just thinking the other day how I should look into how to give stuff while I'm still breathing, if anything's wanted - I must admit, I don't look after myself very well ^^; I was ready to have tests when my cousin was sick, but we didn't need to in the end and then I just kinda forgot about the whole thing, which I guess is bad of me >_> But yes, I would, no question ^^

♪ Open the skies over me, I am waiting patiently - I'll wait for a sign...

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 11:45:48 GMT

I miss my video games.

;-;

Writer's Block: Pecking Order

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 09:34:29 GMT

Are you an oldest, youngest, middle, or only child? How do you think it has influenced your personality?

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Oldest, and I dislike it a lot >_> Growing up all I ever got was; You should set an example! thrown at me in various ways over and over ;_; I never was an 'example' kind of person, more of a 'WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME?! *hides*' kind so that always worked out REALLY well...

I do like to think I have my head screwed on pretty good, at the very least. Being older and watching people around me taught me a lot. I might not ACT my age or have much that most people my age do, but I know what's what and I'm pretty happy with my place in the great scheme of things - that's WAY more important than being grown up in my book ^^

♪ It's five minutes to midnight, you're coming home with me tonight~~ <3

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 00:23:28 GMT

*to Kitsu* Only NOT, because you're still in Slovenia - LAME! <3

BUT YES. 1.20am and I'm just letting you know I didn't die on my epic TWELVE HOURS of travelling - LONG story why it took that long but too tired to acre right now so am gonna cuddle up with my Marmie (who loves me again already - yay!) and SLEEP A LOT.

Yes.

I will be putting more pix up and detailing the holidayness when I get home (at parents place right now) but for the moment? BED x_x

♪ All the time I spend alone now won't comfort me...

larlarulysses@googlemail.com — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 11:30:39 GMT

I have been neglecting the internet SO BADLY this week, but I have seriously not stopped! We've been pretty much out all day, everyday but are really enjoying ourselves so I guess that's okay! But yes! Off to see the cave of the human fish today so have some photos, first!

The Capitol.

Venice

Bled

Train ride from Bled.

The coast.

Lipica.

The sunset.

Sweet little church.

Cake time!

Slovenian/Italian boarder.

And we sill have three days after today to go! XD